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Bangungot sa Umaga January 26, 2010

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Alas sais ng umaga, ako ay nakatulog. Hindi ko alam na ang masarap na pahinga na aking inaasam ay magiging ganoon kasalimuot. Malamig ang hangin, uuulan, pagod galling sa First Report ang sarap matulog di ba? Kaya gaya ng mga karaniwang tao na sarap na sarap sa pag tulog, ako ay nahiga at pumikit muna.

Hindi ko na naabyad si may na nagtext ng “Ingat ka bhaby ko.” Nakatulog na ako at nasangkot sa isang kwento na hinding hindi ko na nanaisin pang marinig, makita o maalaala. Hindi ko alam na panaginip ang nangyari, pero para talagang totoo. Lahat ng mga taong nandoon ay kakilala ko, lalo na si May.

Maganda pa ang takbo ng kwento hanggang nawala si May, pilit ko sya hinanap. Tumakbo ko ng tumakbo, naghanap ng naghanap. Samantala nawala anko sa aking karakter at naging parang tagapanood lamang ng nasabing panaginip…

Doon nakita ko sya, malayo sa akin, nahihirapan sa kamay ng kung sino sino na hindi ko kilala. Kita ko lahat, dinig ko lahat ng sigaw at iyak nya. Sa lahat ng aking narinig at nakita, wala akong nagawa kundi manood at sundan ang kwento dahil ang ako sa kwento ay malayo pa sa kanya. Sa sobrang sakit ng naramdaman ko, bigla na lang akong nawala sa pagkakapanood at napayakap sa kanya habang binubulong sa kanya na “Nandito na ko… wag ka na Matakot.”

Umiiyak pa rin sya, hindi ko na napansin kung gaano ako binugbog ng mga taong yun habang hawak ko si May, ang ginawa ko na lang ay ag gumising. Pinilit ko ang sarili ko na gumising.

Pagdating sa realidad, basa ang katawan sa pawis, at ang takot at pagaalala ay sariwa pa sa mukha ko. Alas otso na, late na ako sa klase, pero sya pa rin ang pumasok sa isip ko. Wala akong pang tawag, nangangalos ang mga kamay ko habang nagtetext. Mag reply ka, mag reply ka na… pakiusap.

Nakapag reply sya at ayos naman ang kalagayan nya, buti na lang panaginip talaga. Wag na sana magkatotoo, hindi ko na kaya.

Hindi ko alam kung ano gusto iparating ng PANGITaing iyon, dahil ba ganun ko na lang sya kamahal, o dahil hindi ang ako nagdadasal bago matulog. Pero pagkagising ko, sa Kanya talaga ko kumapit at nanalangin. Pakiusap po Bro, wag mo hayaan na mangyari yun…

**Gusto ko makalimot pero di ko alam kung paano, kung alam mo, email mo naman ako… plsss. Thanks

Ninoy January 4, 2010

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In the midst of all the commotion after Cory’s death and Ninoy’s death Anniversary, I saw a documentary of Ninoy’s Life before a bullet ended it. While watching I noticed that they were using a series of video clips of Ninoy delivering a speech. I presumed that there is an existing whole video footage cover of that speech and tried to look for it on the web.

I was always a fan of Ninoy, his spirit, passion and his love for his fellow people. And in that speech he showed it. He told his fellow people how he lived and how he loved.

I know this is a late topic but you know me, I write what I feel and right now I feel him.

Here is a repost of Ninoy’s speech in words.

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Pakikipamuhay sa bahay at Tindahan ni Nanay Vilma December 18, 2009

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Kita ko na sa bintana ng sinasakyan naming jeep ang mga senyales na kami ay nasa linang na. Mayroon nang maraming puno, damo, mga baka, kabayo at ang simoy ng hangin ay tila may malamig na pakiramdam kumpara sa lunsod na magdadala ng kulangot sa inyong ilong.

Pagbaba naming ay tumambad ang isang basketball court na pinaliligiran ng mga tao at animoy nagtataka sa pagbaba ng mga kabataang galling sa lunsod. Ako ay nag uli uli at nagtanong tanong, baka sakaling mabawasan ang aking pagtataka sa kahihinatnan naming sa immersion na ito. Malawak ang lugar na iyon ngunit hiwahiwalay ang mga magkakapitbahay, napatunayan ko ito ng kami ay mapa assign sa isang bahay na di kalayuan sa dulo ng Ibabang Talim.

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Thesis Mode December 5, 2009

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There will come a time in every fourth year student in our course that he/she will go in the battle field against three notorious panelists with only documents and an output system as arsenals. Yup, this is Thesis Defense, and we are now running here and there just to finalize our strategy to win this war.

The first battle already began and the three of us were stunned in answering the panel’s questions, even so, we defended our problem and documents with flying colors. We were the first one out that battleground and we did not know what to expect. Throwing them English explanations for our problem was the hardest part… loosing ammunition in speaking English is the worst dead end one can ever encounter.

The battle went on with the other groups and in my opinions, me and my group mates were victors. And we wish the others the same victory and glory we reached.

The battle has ended, still there is a war we have to win… next stop, CMS Mode.

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Sa Riles November 25, 2009

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Naglalakad ako sa riles na katapat ng aming bahay, kauulan lamang kaya amoy na amoy ang mga basang uray at damo sa mga taniman ng gulay. Maya maya ay tumambad sa akin ang mukha ng pamilyar na mukha ng isang dalaga, maputi, nakangiti, at ako’y tinatawag. Kilala ko sya sahil nakasama ko sya sa opisina, matagal tagal na rin bago ulit kami nagkita at sa sobrang kasabikan a niyakap ko sya at binati. Inimbitahan ko sya sa aming bahay at inalok ng makakain, sya at ang kanyang kasamang dalaga rin. Buong araw kaming nag kwentuhan kasama ng aking pamilya at napakasaya talaga ng aming muling pagkikita.

Nang humupa ang tawanan ay akin syang tinanong, aalis ka pa ba? ang ngiti sa kanyang mukha, hindi man nabura ay nagpahiwatig pa rin ng kalungkutan.

“Kailangan ko pang mag lakbay, marami pa akong dapat gawin at tapusin, nagpaalam lang ako sa iyo.”

Matapos ang mga katagang iyon, siya ay nag ayos, tinawag ang kanyang kasama at nagsimula nang lumakad sa riles kung saan ko siya muling nakita.

itutuloy…

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Mar, Ako Na… October 31, 2009

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May mga dahilan kung bakit hindi ako masyado makapagsulat tungkol sa pulitika. Hindi naman sa wala ako pakialam, malawak lang kasi ang sakop nito na maaaring hindi ko pa alam at isa pa, hindi pa ako nakakaboto kahit dapat ay botante na ako. Nakakahiya namang magngangawa ng mga bagay na una sa lahat ay dapat ako muna ang gumagawa. Paano ko ipagtatanggol ang karapatan nating mga Pilipino sa pagsusulat kung sa tanging paraan ng pagboto ay hindi ko pa nagagawa.

Kaya nagpasya akong magparehistro na. Ang sabi ng marami ay mahaba daw ang pila, ang ilan siksikan naman daw. Mayroon namang nadalian sa sistema ng pagpaparehistro pero ako, ako talaga ay nainip. Nainip at nabugnot sa kakahintay sa napakahabang pila sa munisipyo.

Dahil nalalapit na ang katapusan ng araw ng pagpaparehistro, dumarami na ang humahabol at nag pasya sila |ang munisipyo| na habaan pa ang oras ng pagpaparehistro hanggang gabi. Kaya pagkalabas namin sa opisina ay deretso na kami doon upang mag fill up ng application form. Dito sa Lucena ako nagpasyang bumoto, dito na rin naman kasi ako nagkamalay at nagka muwang kahit palagi akong nasa Sariaya upang magbakasyon.

Madali lang mag fill up ng form at nang matapos ko na yun ay dinala na ako ng nag isang volunteer sa lugar kung saan kukunan ka ng thumbmark at picture para sa voter’s ID. Ang gana ko sa pagfill up ng form ay bigla na lang naglaho nang makita ko ang sandamakmak na tao na akala ko ay nagkakagulo, yun pala ay naka pila para sa picture taking. Mahaba ang pila na umikot na sa napakahabang building. At kung iisipin ko na ako ang nasa dulo ng pilang ito, gugustuhin ko na talagang umuwi. Hindi pa ako kumakain kasi ang akala ko ay mabilis lang ang registration. Sino ba kasi nagsabi na mabilis lang hay.

Ilang oras pa ang lumipas ay marami na rin ang tao sa likuran ko. At pautay utay ang usad tungo sa opisina kung saan nandoon ang camera. Katapat ko lang pala ang opisina pero kailangan pa umikot ng pila para magkasya sa ilalim ng bubong ng munisipyo. Nakakainip, nakakagutom at nakakaantok mag hintay.

Matapos ang pitong oras na paghihintay ay nasa loob na ako ng opisina.. J Pero sa loob ay may pila pa rin. Maayos na naman, hindi na maingay hindi na mainit. Air conditioned na e. Hindi ko rin naman na napansin ang oras kasi maya maya lang ay ako na ang kuklunan ng picture at thumbprint.

At sa wakas, nakuha ko na ang ,maliit na papel na ibibigay daw para makuha ang ID some time in the not too distant future. Masaya na ko kasi tunay na kong Pilipino na pwede makialam sa pamamalakad ng bansa. Masaya talaga magpa rehistro, yun ay kung dedicated ka. Umuwi ako sa aming dormitory na may ngiti sa mukha kasi pwede na ako magsulat ng kung ano ano. Babawi ako sa eleksyon…

…pramis

…boboto ako

Oo ako na….

Ako na mismo…

Ako na mismo magsisimula…

FORWARDED: My Short Essay About the Philippines October 26, 2009

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by: Jaeyoun Kim
FORWARDED BY SHIELA RAYMUNDO

Filipinos always complain about the corruption in
the Philippines . Do you really think the corruption
is the problem of the Philippines ? I do not
think so. I strongly believe that the problem is
the lack of love for the Philippines .

Let me first talk about my country, Korea .
It might help you understand my point.
After the Korean War, South Korea was one
of the poorest countries in the world. Koreans
had to start from scratch because entire country was
destroyed after the Korean War, and we had no
natural resources.

Koreans used to talk about the Philippines , for
Filipinos were very rich in Asia . We envy Filipinos.
Koreans really wanted to be well off like
Filipinos. Many Koreans died of famine.

My father & brother also died because of famine.
Korean government was very corrupt and is still very
corrupt beyond your imagination, but Korea was
able to develop dramatically because Koreans really
did their best for the common good with their heart
burning with patriotism.

Koreans did not work just for themselves but also
for their neighborhood and country. Education inspired
young men with the spirit of patriotism.

40 years ago, President Park took over the
government to reform Korea . He tried to borrow money
from other countries, but it was not possible to get a
loan and attract a foreign investment because the
economic situation of South Korea was so bad. Korea had
only three factories. So, President Park sent many mine
workers and nurses to Germany so that
they could send money to Korea to build a factory.
They had to go through horrible experience.

In 1964, President Park visited Germany to borrow
money. Hundred of Koreans in Germany came to the
airport to welcome him and cried there as they saw
the President Park . They asked to him, “President,
when can we be well off?” That was the only question
everyone asked to him. President Park cried with
them and promised them that Korea would be well
off if everyone works hard for Korea , and the President
of Germany got the strong impression on them
and lent money to Korea . So, President Park was
able to build many factories in Korea . He always
asked Koreans to love their country from their heart.

Many Korean scientists and engineers in the USA
came back to Korea to help developing country
because they wanted their country to be well off.
Though they received very small salary, they did their
best for Korea . They always hoped that their children
would live in well off country.

My parents always brought me to the places where
poor and physically handicapped people live. They
wanted me to understand their life and help them..
I also worked for Catholic Church when I was in the army..
The only thing I learned from Catholic Church was that we
have to love our neighborhood. And, I have loved my
neighborhood. Have you cried for the
Philippines? I have cried for my country several
times. I also cried for the Philippines because of so many
poor people. I have been to the New Bilibid
prison. What made me sad in the prison were the
prisoners who do not have any love for their country.
They go to mass and work for Church. They pray
everyday.

However, they do not love the Philippines . I
talked to two prisoners at the maximum-security compound,
and both of them said that they would leave the
Philippines right after they are released from the
prison. They said that they would start a new life in other
countries and never come back to the Philippines .

Many Koreans have a great love for Korea so that
we were able to share our wealth with our neighborhood.
The owners of factory and company were distributed their
profit to their employees fairly so that employees could
buy what they needed and saved money for the
future and their children.

When I was in Korea , I had a very strong faith and
wanted to be a priest. However, when I came to the Philippines ,
I completely lost my faith.
I was very confused when I saw many unbelievable
situations in the Philippines . Street kids always make me sad,
and I see them everyday. The Philippines is the only Catholic
country in Asia
, but there are too many poor people here.
People go to church every Sunday to pray, but nothing has
been changed.

My parents came to the Philippines last week and
saw this situation. They told me that Korea was much poorer
than the present Philippines when they
were young. They are so sorry that there are so
many beggars and street kids. When we went to Pasangjan,
I forced my parents to take a boat because
it would fun. However, they were not happy after
taking a boat. They said that they would not take the boat
again because they were sympathized the
boatmen, for the boatmen were very poor and had a
small frame. Most of people just took a boat and enjoyed it.
But, my parents did not enjoy it because of love
for them.

My mother who has been working for Catholic Church
since I was very young told me that if we just go to
mass without changing ourselves, we are not
Catholic indeed. Faith should come with action.
She added that I have to love Filipinos and do good things
for them because all of us are same and have received a great
love from God. I want Filipinos to love their
neighborhood and country as much as they love God
so that the Philippines will be well off.

I am sure that love is the keyword, which Filipinos
should remember. We cannot change the sinful structure at once.
It should start from person. Love must start in everybody,
in a s mall scale and have to grow. A lot of
things happen if we open up to love. Let’s put away
our prejudices and look at our worries with our new eyes.

I discover that every person is worthy to be
loved. Trust in love, because it makes changes possible.
Love changes you and me. It changes people, contexts and
relationships. It changes the world. Please love your
neighborhood and country.

Jesus Christ said that whatever we do to others we
do to Him
. In the Philippines , there is God for people who
are abused and abandoned. There is God who is crying for love.
If you have a child, teach them how to love the Philippines .
Teach them why they have to love their neighborhood and country.
You already know that God also will be very happy if you love others.

That’s all I really want to ask you Filipinos.

Condolences October 7, 2009

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Nakikiramay po ako sa pagpanaw ni Lawrince Ray Anda kahapon lamang. Nawa po ay makasama na niya ang Poong Lumikha.

Isang kaklase,
kadepartment
ka schoolmate
at
kaibigan

tie a yellow ribbon for cory aquino July 28, 2009

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Cory Aquino: My Yellow Ribbon

Cory Aquino: My Yellow Ribbon

After getting tagged by mahalia, i mmediately responded with my own sketch of the former president. I will also support barriosiete’s efforts along with the efforts of every blogger and Filipinos praying for her recovery.

If we Filipinos are worth dying for, we will not wait for death to prove it.

Mabuhay!!

IF I FEEL July 28, 2009

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written by bogart

Sometimes I feel exhausted

Sometimes I feel I’m sick,

Can’t even move a muscle

Can’t even barely speak

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It seems I haven’t eaten

It seems I haven’t slept

My body just can’t take it

After everything it kept

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They think I need a doctor

I beg to disagree

I know my own illness

I know my remedy

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These things that I have told you,

Those things I seem to feel

Sometimes I just feel them

But they are not that real

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I just want some attention,

A hug or maybe two

I just need some comfort,

Maybe I just need you

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I can’t help but feel them

So that you’d give me care,

Or those sweet thoughts that gives me

The smiles you make me wear

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Maybe not exhausted

Maybe I’m not sick

Maybe those are child’s play

Maybe those are tricks

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Just so that you would notice

How badly I miss you, just so you would know

I’m lonely without you.